Race Play, Humiliation and Black Lives Matter

Let me start off by saying that I wholeheartedly support the protests over the murder of George Floyd in the USA, I was born in very white rural upstate New York and I saw a lot of racism. America, and the world, are both in desperate need of radical change and I desperately hope that change comes out of this. I commit to doing my part, and I’m not going to virtue signal by discussing in what ways unless I am asked to.

As many of my fans know, in the past I used to do race play as one of many, many femdom genres in cam shows and clips. It started out in requests from Black men on cam, many years ago. I was tentative at first, it didn’t seem right, but I made my career on exploring dark subjects, the taboo, and doing what was “wrong” and “bad” in many people’s eyes. Hell, sex work is known to be taboo, wrong and bad to many, with sex workers as the devil incarnate. I started to get custom video requests for this too.

You see, humiliation is still one of my kinks, both giving and receiving, and how I understand humiliation is on the mental and emotional level. I see most of the fetishes I engage with operate on the psychological dimension, they are usually repressed memories, fantasies and taboos which make their impression often very early and turn into sexual fixations. Humiliation I find to be a particularly cathartic way to release feelings of shame. Domination is a way to release feelings of disempowerment. Masochism is a way to release fear of pain, and so on. In BDSM we play with the dark side and bring out the Shadow (see the work of psychologist Carl Jung on the Shadow) in a safe space with limits and consent. But yes, I did have a little nagging sense of guilt and shame, asking me, is this right? Is someone going to misunderstand my intentions if they see this? I started to put a disclaimer on my clips that it was roleplay only.

I also understand that just because someone gets turned on by something doesn’t mean they are for it in real life. Someone can be excited by race play but outraged when they encounter racism. As a woman whose oldest kink was rape and gang rape fantasy, in no way shape or form would I wish to be raped except as a roleplay situation with someone(s) I trust and who I’ve discussed my limits with. I don’t think I’m wrong for having that fantasy, or that I need therapy for it, but I’m sure my most prevalent fantasy comes out of a sexist society that oppresses women and rapes women, and makes women fear the force and brutality of men. Fear turns itself into an irrepressible turn-on, for many.

I told myself when I was participating in race play, up to 4 years ago that I was no racist, but I was hopelessly unaware of the deep-reaching extent of my white privilege. I thought that a non-racist roleplaying one for Black people to enjoy the taboo exposed in a safe, consensual container was something that was probably psychologically helpful for my customers. Who else could they share an aspect of their deepest pain with, and roleplay situations of racism and shame with but a white person? It seemed to have to be a white person for them, or else it wouldn’t have the same impact and psychological and erotic charge. How else to engage so potently in a way that is totally safe and private? Our subconscious uses eroticism as a way to force us to deal with repressed emotion and look at it. Nothing like something making your dick impossibly hard or turning your pussy into a river for making you give the subject some attention. Through eroticism and roleplay, we can work through toxic shame, a crippling emotion when not seen, heard and dealt with.

I thought this way for many years. Unfortunately, I only started worrying about four years ago it when I decided I wanted to make my career doing something else, as an artist, and I knew a lot of my videos were being pirated. I feared they would be misunderstood out of context, so I took them down, along with other fetishes I came to have a distaste for, for various reasons.

Then, in the years after, on Twitter, I started to see other performers complain about race play videos and argue that it is wrong to ever engage in, even amongst consensual adults. But the argument that white people should never profit off of racism is what made me realize that I would never do racial humiliation again, it really hit me hard and made it sink in why people opposed it and felt it is a tool of oppression and a racist act.

This week, during the widespread protests about police brutality suffered by Black people, another domme found a race play custom video of mine from several years ago on a minor clip site which I forgot to take down, and screenshotted it alongside a tweet I made in support of Black Lives Matter to, apparently, expose my hypocrisy. I admit total culpability for my past actions and my sloppiness in neglecting to remove a handful of videos. I have since deleted them, and made a public statement on Twitter about my feelings on the subject as well as my mindset at the time that I made them, as a Black sex worker confronted me asking why I thought it was OK at the time to do so.

For the time being, I have left some other non-humiliating, but somewhat objectifying videos which do not use the N-word up in which Black men are discussed, such as cuckold videos and videos talking about BBC. All proceeds for such videos which are sold in future will go to support either bailing out protesters from jail or to Black sex workers in need. Due to having a really traumatic and expensive year on the personal front, I can’t afford to donate all funds I have profited off of race play today, but as soon I can afford to, I will tally up how much I’ve ever made off of race play clips and cam shows and donate it, and more, to one of those causes. It probably isn’t as much as you think.

I want to speak directly to my Black fans who enjoy race play, and are maybe feeling some shame about how many think that it shouldn’t be done, saying you need therapy, and you shouldn’t like what you like, and some anger and sadness that their favourite performers are not doing it anymore. I’m sorry that you’re being made to feel more shame on top of the feelings you already feel about living in a racist society. I’m sorry that an outlet for you has been taken away. I truly am, but I can’t indulge the kink anymore with good conscience with the insight I now have. I’m afraid you’ll have to seek out performers who have not yet been enlightened, or less safe performers who don’t care, and who may actually be racist bigots. I encourage you to seek out the former, not the latter. I encourage you to seek it out in private, perhaps with someone who loves you and cherishes you. I encourage you to roleplay this with POC, even if it doesn’t carry the same erotic charge as doing it with a white person does. I encourage you to talk with other Black people about the subject. I do encourage you to do some reflection, maybe even get therapy if you want to, but know that you are NOT wrong or bad for having such desires. It is simply a reflection of the horrible, cruel society we live in that causes you to have such desires and I understand that you like it because it is wrong and taboo, and that it is a release. Sending you love and big hugs! I feel for you having this come up on social media at a time that is doubtless already extra stressful for you.

I also want to say thank you to the Twitter domme who put me on blast on social media about this, and thank you to the Black people who forgave me for making this kind of content and could feel the genuineness of my apology. I don’t expect or deserve forgiveness and it is appreciated when it is freely given. That really touches my heart. I am grateful for the opportunity to do and be better, and to make amends. As much as I fully enjoy humiliating others and dominating and abusing others, I only ever enjoy it when done in a consensual fashion. This applies to when I am being submissive too. I don’t get off on real abuse and oppression. I’m grateful for the chance to reflect on my white privilege and to become more conscious of race issues and the way even those who don’t think they are being racist, in fact are! I was one of those people, I probably still am in ways I don’t yet see, but I’m open to learning. I’m excited to continue my growing process as I’m committed to doing my part to keep rooting out white privilege and white supremacy at its roots and live a more compassionate life by contributing to making our society more just and kind.

Be My Valentine?

I have yet to film any Valentine clips this year…but I do have a couple of ideas, one involving balloons and the other an evil taboo executrix clip! I do like to make the holidays dark and weird, what can I say?

Perhaps you would like to see if Cupid’s arrows strike you over some of my clips from past seasons?

Heart-Shaped Ass

This is a super cute dancing video with me drawing hearts on my booty while dancing.

Incest Valentine

Mom gives you a Valentine’s Day present you will never forget!

Popping Your Valentine’s Present
Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction
Popping Your Valentine’s Present

Balloons? For Valentine’s Day? That’s it? Really darling…I’ll show you what I think of that.

Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction

Your Aunt Sophia is very flirtatious and horny. Can you resist the wiles of a thick older woman?

Our Fetish Fuck on Valentine’s

Do you dream about a latex-clad lapdance from me, as your girlfriend on Valentine’s Day?

Holiday Fetish Porn Blast From the Past

Hi guys! I wanted to share some more cool porn from past years that I created for the holidays. Hope you enjoy! I’m making so much this year, more than ever, and having a lot of fun with it, I will share previews soon πŸ˜‰

First Christmas Alone Together is a taboo sensual Daddy-daughter POV fantasy
Christmas Cold is a fun roleplay where I play your wife, and we normally have sex on Xmas morning, but I have a cold! Turns out you don’t mind and you watch then cum on my face
Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction is a fun MILF & pantyhose centred fantasy where I seduce my own nephew!
Christmas Under the Tree with Me is a very erotic masturbation session, GFE style with a satin slip and thigh high socks. Let’s cum together!
Christmas in the Convent: You’re in Catholic school over the holidays, and the hottest nun is beyond horny…
All I Want for Christmas is Cock. This request clip might not be what you expect from the title!

July Clip Roundup

Surprise, surprise, my top-selling femdom clip for July was a sneeze clip! I haven’t done a sneezing domination clip, but I had my medical set up (nothing extravagant, just enough to get your imagination working). I played a doctor getting revenge on an inconsiderate, arrogant patient by tying him up and sneezing all over him! This clip is shot in POV and you can see the snot hitting the lens.

The Doctor’s Revenge, 10 minutes

Underdog of the month: Β An audio experience in ass worship, and when I say worship, I mean it! This blasphemy clip makes you bow down to the Church of my ass, and submit. You also are instructed to rub your cock and balls on the bible, and let your spit from eating my ass drool down on its “holy” pages. You’ll love blaspheming the bible with me.

The Church of Sophia, mp3. 14 minutes

Now onto the picks of the month in my fetish store. I’m always pleased when one of my best-sellers is one of my favourites as well, and “I’m a Bitch 2” was a long-awaited sequel. My submissive side doesn’t often get a chance to come out in clips, since it’s harder to film than femdom POV. But I really enjoy clips that highlight magic transformation, and in this clip, it is a gift from my boyfriend that turns me into a horny puppy girl! Highlights: the slow transformation paired with BDSM gear–including a cage!– and brief interludes into my normal self and back and forth into the horny bitch, and the difficulty with which I get in my huge puppy tail buttplug!

I’m a Bitch 2, 11 minutes

The underdog of the month for my fetish store is one I thought would do better than it did. Fauxcest is so popular right now, don’t you guys want to fuck mommy’s ass? I go through a role-play where I encourage you to fuck mommy’s ass, and I use a toy. The style is kind of how I would do camshows. It isn’t true POV, instead you see from the third person and imagine the dildo is you. I use a big toy on my tight ass, check it out!

Mommy’s Anal Virgin, 10 minutes

 

Customs with Katy Churchill!

Katy Churchill and I shot some hot videos a couple of years ago, and she’s coming back to my area again! We’re available to shoot custom porn for you on August 1 and 2, so get your orders and inquiries in ASAP. I included some gifs from our most popular clips that we filmed together. Enjoy!

Blood Slave to a Vampire

Grooming our Daughter for You

Katy and I are both bisexual, and kink and fetish-friendly. Give me a brief summary of your custom video idea and I will get back to you as soon as possible. Customs with Katy are $20/min this time as a special deal! Girl-girl customs are lots of fun so we hope to get several orders. We’ll be shooting in a hotel during an adult industry convention. We’re also excellent role-players and open to taboo, lesbian sex of pretty much every kind, BDSM and more.

Juicy Legs in Nylons JOI

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Father’s Day Debauchery

To celebrate Father’s Day, I thought I would share some of my favourite past taboo Daddy’s girl clips for you to revisit and enjoy! This one is called Daddy’s Girl in Purple Pantyhose, and while that is self explanatory, the masturbation and POV sex scenes you’ll have to see for yourself! Full of sexiness and sweetness for your inner Daddy.

You’re really not going to want to miss Daddy’s Little Girl is Naughty if you like traditional Β spanking scenes and panties! Watch my big butt get spanked over Daddy’s knee for making dirty drawings and not wearing the white fullback cotton panties I’m supposed to. My ass gets nice and rosy.

Daddy’s Little Latex Schoolgirl is something different and a blast from the past! I’m looking hot in tall latex socks, rubber kilt and white corset-style button up top. Won’t you be my Daddy? Watch me be super cute sucking on a huge lollipop then take an even huger dildo in my little sweet, shaved puss.

This one is super cute and summery! Daddy gets teased by my butt in denim cutoffs on the porch. Daddy’s Cutoff Tease

Here’s another guy/girl spanking scene, including blackmail, age play, lots of role-play and more! A good hard spanking for sure! This was a custom. The Punishment Fits the Crime

May Clip Roundup

My most popular clip for May was “Stripsneeze”. It was a simple but fun concept, I presented a game, for every single solitary sneeze or sneezing fit, I had to remove an item of clothing. Lots of suspenseful “I think I’m going to sneeze” moments, uncertainty about how naked I’ll be able to get or if I will get far at all, as I try out different methods to stimulate my sneezes. Some great wet sneezes and hankie nose blows! Also this outfit was super cute.

My most under-recognized clip of May was a custom called “Swim Cap Scuba Submission”, I’m not sure if it was the bondage or the swim cap or what, but you guys normally love my latex scuba stuff! I’m wearing a tape gag instead of a regulator, and I’m in leather cuffs, hogtied, with a vibrator strapped to my cunt. Lots of struggling and mmmmffffhhhing as I moan and wriggle my way to multiple forced orgasms.

My most popular clip of the month was “My Doctor Was a Vampire.” I really love filming vampire stuff, and I try to keep it fresh with varying up the types of action, sometimes I kill yours sometimes I just drain you. Sometimes I suck from your neck, sometimes from your dick. This time, you’re my patient and I drain you in more ways than one…

My pick for May in my femdom store is “Eating Hansel and Gretel”. I loved the dark Grimm fairy tales growing up, and what started as a kernel of an idea for this clip took its own form as I was getting ready. I enjoy dressing up as different characters a lot, and collect lots of different bits and pieces of makeup and clothing for costumes. Here I’m dressed as a sexy witch, sitting by the fire in her cottage. You are a desperate incestuous brother and sister who sought me out to break the bonds of blood. But you stole from my garden out of hunger, and you, Hansel, are too pushy. You demand that I perform the spell now. Instead I regress you, shrinking you both younger and younger in stages. Once you are babies, I start to feel hungry, and like punishing and torturing you…Features belly fetish, vore, age regression, transformation fetish and more. Such wicked fun!