Race Play, Humiliation and Black Lives Matter

Let me start off by saying that I wholeheartedly support the protests over the murder of George Floyd in the USA, I was born in very white rural upstate New York and I saw a lot of racism. America, and the world, are both in desperate need of radical change and I desperately hope that change comes out of this. I commit to doing my part, and I’m not going to virtue signal by discussing in what ways unless I am asked to.

As many of my fans know, in the past I used to do race play as one of many, many femdom genres in cam shows and clips. It started out in requests from Black men on cam, many years ago. I was tentative at first, it didn’t seem right, but I made my career on exploring dark subjects, the taboo, and doing what was “wrong” and “bad” in many people’s eyes. Hell, sex work is known to be taboo, wrong and bad to many, with sex workers as the devil incarnate. I started to get custom video requests for this too.

You see, humiliation is still one of my kinks, both giving and receiving, and how I understand humiliation is on the mental and emotional level. I see most of the fetishes I engage with operate on the psychological dimension, they are usually repressed memories, fantasies and taboos which make their impression often very early and turn into sexual fixations. Humiliation I find to be a particularly cathartic way to release feelings of shame. Domination is a way to release feelings of disempowerment. Masochism is a way to release fear of pain, and so on. In BDSM we play with the dark side and bring out the Shadow (see the work of psychologist Carl Jung on the Shadow) in a safe space with limits and consent. But yes, I did have a little nagging sense of guilt and shame, asking me, is this right? Is someone going to misunderstand my intentions if they see this? I started to put a disclaimer on my clips that it was roleplay only.

I also understand that just because someone gets turned on by something doesn’t mean they are for it in real life. Someone can be excited by race play but outraged when they encounter racism. As a woman whose oldest kink was rape and gang rape fantasy, in no way shape or form would I wish to be raped except as a roleplay situation with someone(s) I trust and who I’ve discussed my limits with. I don’t think I’m wrong for having that fantasy, or that I need therapy for it, but I’m sure my most prevalent fantasy comes out of a sexist society that oppresses women and rapes women, and makes women fear the force and brutality of men. Fear turns itself into an irrepressible turn-on, for many.

I told myself when I was participating in race play, up to 4 years ago that I was no racist, but I was hopelessly unaware of the deep-reaching extent of my white privilege. I thought that a non-racist roleplaying one for Black people to enjoy the taboo exposed in a safe, consensual container was something that was probably psychologically helpful for my customers. Who else could they share an aspect of their deepest pain with, and roleplay situations of racism and shame with but a white person? It seemed to have to be a white person for them, or else it wouldn’t have the same impact and psychological and erotic charge. How else to engage so potently in a way that is totally safe and private? Our subconscious uses eroticism as a way to force us to deal with repressed emotion and look at it. Nothing like something making your dick impossibly hard or turning your pussy into a river for making you give the subject some attention. Through eroticism and roleplay, we can work through toxic shame, a crippling emotion when not seen, heard and dealt with.

I thought this way for many years. Unfortunately, I only started worrying about four years ago it when I decided I wanted to make my career doing something else, as an artist, and I knew a lot of my videos were being pirated. I feared they would be misunderstood out of context, so I took them down, along with other fetishes I came to have a distaste for, for various reasons.

Then, in the years after, on Twitter, I started to see other performers complain about race play videos and argue that it is wrong to ever engage in, even amongst consensual adults. But the argument that white people should never profit off of racism is what made me realize that I would never do racial humiliation again, it really hit me hard and made it sink in why people opposed it and felt it is a tool of oppression and a racist act.

This week, during the widespread protests about police brutality suffered by Black people, another domme found a race play custom video of mine from several years ago on a minor clip site which I forgot to take down, and screenshotted it alongside a tweet I made in support of Black Lives Matter to, apparently, expose my hypocrisy. I admit total culpability for my past actions and my sloppiness in neglecting to remove a handful of videos. I have since deleted them, and made a public statement on Twitter about my feelings on the subject as well as my mindset at the time that I made them, as a Black sex worker confronted me asking why I thought it was OK at the time to do so.

For the time being, I have left some other non-humiliating, but somewhat objectifying videos which do not use the N-word up in which Black men are discussed, such as cuckold videos and videos talking about BBC. All proceeds for such videos which are sold in future will go to support either bailing out protesters from jail or to Black sex workers in need. Due to having a really traumatic and expensive year on the personal front, I can’t afford to donate all funds I have profited off of race play today, but as soon I can afford to, I will tally up how much I’ve ever made off of race play clips and cam shows and donate it, and more, to one of those causes. It probably isn’t as much as you think.

I want to speak directly to my Black fans who enjoy race play, and are maybe feeling some shame about how many think that it shouldn’t be done, saying you need therapy, and you shouldn’t like what you like, and some anger and sadness that their favourite performers are not doing it anymore. I’m sorry that you’re being made to feel more shame on top of the feelings you already feel about living in a racist society. I’m sorry that an outlet for you has been taken away. I truly am, but I can’t indulge the kink anymore with good conscience with the insight I now have. I’m afraid you’ll have to seek out performers who have not yet been enlightened, or less safe performers who don’t care, and who may actually be racist bigots. I encourage you to seek out the former, not the latter. I encourage you to seek it out in private, perhaps with someone who loves you and cherishes you. I encourage you to roleplay this with POC, even if it doesn’t carry the same erotic charge as doing it with a white person does. I encourage you to talk with other Black people about the subject. I do encourage you to do some reflection, maybe even get therapy if you want to, but know that you are NOT wrong or bad for having such desires. It is simply a reflection of the horrible, cruel society we live in that causes you to have such desires and I understand that you like it because it is wrong and taboo, and that it is a release. Sending you love and big hugs! I feel for you having this come up on social media at a time that is doubtless already extra stressful for you.

I also want to say thank you to the Twitter domme who put me on blast on social media about this, and thank you to the Black people who forgave me for making this kind of content and could feel the genuineness of my apology. I don’t expect or deserve forgiveness and it is appreciated when it is freely given. That really touches my heart. I am grateful for the opportunity to do and be better, and to make amends. As much as I fully enjoy humiliating others and dominating and abusing others, I only ever enjoy it when done in a consensual fashion. This applies to when I am being submissive too. I don’t get off on real abuse and oppression. I’m grateful for the chance to reflect on my white privilege and to become more conscious of race issues and the way even those who don’t think they are being racist, in fact are! I was one of those people, I probably still am in ways I don’t yet see, but I’m open to learning. I’m excited to continue my growing process as I’m committed to doing my part to keep rooting out white privilege and white supremacy at its roots and live a more compassionate life by contributing to making our society more just and kind.

Be My Valentine?

I have yet to film any Valentine clips this year…but I do have a couple of ideas, one involving balloons and the other an evil taboo executrix clip! I do like to make the holidays dark and weird, what can I say?

Perhaps you would like to see if Cupid’s arrows strike you over some of my clips from past seasons?

Heart-Shaped Ass

This is a super cute dancing video with me drawing hearts on my booty while dancing.

Incest Valentine

Mom gives you a Valentine’s Day present you will never forget!

Popping Your Valentine’s Present
Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction
Popping Your Valentine’s Present

Balloons? For Valentine’s Day? That’s it? Really darling…I’ll show you what I think of that.

Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction

Your Aunt Sophia is very flirtatious and horny. Can you resist the wiles of a thick older woman?

Our Fetish Fuck on Valentine’s

Do you dream about a latex-clad lapdance from me, as your girlfriend on Valentine’s Day?

Clip Picks for January

Well, the holidays are over for now and I’ve got back to filming “regular” clips instead of the themed content…who knows maybe Valentine’s Day will inspire me but I suspect not! I’m well-loved in a polyamorous relationship but we don’t make a big deal of holidays. Here are some of my favourite clips from this month!

I had a lot of fun with this balloon clip, I made it a game that if I could blow up 5 balloons in under 10 min, I could use the rest of the time to cum…I suppose you can guess who won! It sure was motivating! Perhaps I have a Valentine idea after all, I bet my looners would love to see me inflate a room full of sexy red, white and pink balloons, right? Check out Balloon Race to Cum

Nutting for New Nylons

I love this clip simply because these are the fanciest pair of pantyhose I’ve ever owned and they’re so hot! I love the sheer black 15 dernier material, how shiny they make my legs look, the totally transparent gusset and that SEAM! So sexy! I had a lot of fun posing and teasing in this jerk off encouragement clip.

Bible Baptism

Now the background for this is a bit personal, but the action is pure taboo hotness! I was raised Christian and faced a lot of sexual repression that I had to get over as I grew up, and that turned me into a bit of a deviant both sexually and spiritually! Watch me use the Bible as a footstool, masturbate while denigrating it and finally shower it in a huge stream of piss! Bible Baptism is a must see.

Garbage-Scented Panties

This custom was so much fun to make! A fan with a garbage kink (usually it’s about humiliation and loss) bought my rubber panties and so I filmed this clip to go along with the story. I wore them for days to get them nice and sweaty, and then before sending them, I decided you don’t deserve this glory, so I peeled them off and put them in an old bag of stinky trash, only to pull them out later with gloved hands, and seal them in a zip lock for your delectation! They were RIPE. Go see Garbage-Scented Panties for a unique ass worship humiliation clip.

Epic 2019 Christmas Content

I was in the creative holiday spirit this year, producing a lot of festive content. Perhaps since I spent much of the season alone, and I finally got back to releasing daily videos, it was something I could focus on pouring my abundant creative and sexual energy into!

I’ll start with my favourite and fill it in later if I can with descriptions, I’m having guests arrive in a few hours and lots to do!

Committed for Christmas
Fucking the Christmas Elf
Naughty All Year Long
Sneezes from Santa
Elf Executrix
Gifted 1
Mommy XXXMass
Solstice Satan
Christmas Pops

Holiday Fetish Porn Blast From the Past

Hi guys! I wanted to share some more cool porn from past years that I created for the holidays. Hope you enjoy! I’m making so much this year, more than ever, and having a lot of fun with it, I will share previews soon 😉

First Christmas Alone Together is a taboo sensual Daddy-daughter POV fantasy
Christmas Cold is a fun roleplay where I play your wife, and we normally have sex on Xmas morning, but I have a cold! Turns out you don’t mind and you watch then cum on my face
Aunt Sophia’s Holiday Seduction is a fun MILF & pantyhose centred fantasy where I seduce my own nephew!
Christmas Under the Tree with Me is a very erotic masturbation session, GFE style with a satin slip and thigh high socks. Let’s cum together!
Christmas in the Convent: You’re in Catholic school over the holidays, and the hottest nun is beyond horny…
All I Want for Christmas is Cock. This request clip might not be what you expect from the title!

Haunting Porn from Year’s Past

I wanted to share with you some of my vintage Halloween porn from past years, still as stroke-worthy as ever!

Check out POV Vampire Transformation, where I play your sexy redhead wife, becoming a vampire then eating you. Lots of satin and silk in this clip, from my robe to my silk slip to the red satin sheets.

The Witch’s Curse will have you clutching your junk as I punish you for hitting on me when I’m trying to help you by shrinking your manhood and tell you that you must serve 1000 pussies with your mouth only before the curse will be lifted, starting with mine!

My first succubus clip will make you dream of me coming to visit you as a demoness to steal your soul…and your cum. Topless POV dick riding included 😉 Also get a load of me in this sexy vintage lingerie and stockings and Betty Paige wig!

Dig the scary alien action in It Came From Her Belly as I eat some bad poutine and something horrible grows in my belly! Includes scary belly movements, sweater fetish, getting sick and a horrible creature I made out of clay emerges at the end. For belly fetishists. A custom video production. Curious about them? Read my custom video FAQ!

I love customs for the collaborative creativity they unleash! Drunk Demonic Princess in Hell has me in latex, chugging from an extra large bottle of vodka, as the voice of my dark lord commands me to drink until I die from alcohol poisoning.

This is another custom, where I am a terrible tease to my neighbour who is a voodoo master. He decides to punish me for my teasing exhibitionism by using his magic to tie me up, tape gag me, and caress my body with his ghost hands. Then he animates my stuffed bear to maul my pussy relentlessly! See Voodoo Torment

Eat of His Flesh, Drink of His Blood is a very popular demonic possession solo video where I’m a bad nun in a PVC habit and the devil possesses me and makes me masturbate. A classic!

August Clip Roundup

Hey all! Back for another summer clip roundup. Your most favourite femdom clip of mine for the month was “Vampire Queen vs. Mother Superior”, and it was lots of fun to perform. It had some of my favourite role-play and fetish elements, including latex, blasphemy, vampire and lesbian domination. I wore a nun’s outfit and fucked a cross, so that means I was a happy lady 😉 A fan got me new contact lenses for this one, zombie white ones, and they really stood out especially paired with the ice blue lipstick, it looked really ghoulish and sexy scary.

In early August I got together to shoot some porn with Katy Churchill and this underdog is one of the results. Not sure why you guys weren’t scooping it up in droves, as it has some favourite fetishes in it, including our big butts, rubber fetish, ass smothering and not one but TWO evil executrixes/femme fatales. Perhaps you were just on holiday! Anyway, here’s your reminder, go grab it and go grab yourself! Latex to Die For

Your favourite clip of the month for my fetish store was….dun dun dun…a sneeze clip! Surprise surprise! 😉 You enjoyed my GFE appearance, my masturbatory riding on my vibe and pillow, and of course, my constantly sneezing nose paired with extravagant hankie nose blowing, I guess? It was pretty cute, I must admit, paired with a sexy strip tease and my trying to cum while I kept sneezing! Check out Wet n Wild Ride

Maybe it’s about the creative collaboration, or the fact that someone else does the legwork and comes up with the idea, but often my favourite videos and yours too, are custom productions. This was the case with Doppelgänger Domme, where I play a slutty schoolgirl who is dominated by her own reflection. Her mirror image calls her out on her trashy behaviour and way of dressing, and makes her submit and masturbate. Really hot and creative!

 

Father’s Day Debauchery

To celebrate Father’s Day, I thought I would share some of my favourite past taboo Daddy’s girl clips for you to revisit and enjoy! This one is called Daddy’s Girl in Purple Pantyhose, and while that is self explanatory, the masturbation and POV sex scenes you’ll have to see for yourself! Full of sexiness and sweetness for your inner Daddy.

You’re really not going to want to miss Daddy’s Little Girl is Naughty if you like traditional  spanking scenes and panties! Watch my big butt get spanked over Daddy’s knee for making dirty drawings and not wearing the white fullback cotton panties I’m supposed to. My ass gets nice and rosy.

Daddy’s Little Latex Schoolgirl is something different and a blast from the past! I’m looking hot in tall latex socks, rubber kilt and white corset-style button up top. Won’t you be my Daddy? Watch me be super cute sucking on a huge lollipop then take an even huger dildo in my little sweet, shaved puss.

This one is super cute and summery! Daddy gets teased by my butt in denim cutoffs on the porch. Daddy’s Cutoff Tease

Here’s another guy/girl spanking scene, including blackmail, age play, lots of role-play and more! A good hard spanking for sure! This was a custom. The Punishment Fits the Crime

April Clip Roundup

Still catching up on my Roundups but I like them so here goes! My best-selling clip in my Femdom store for April was most definitely “SPH Therapy”! Combining a couple of popular kinks was a winner here as you are forced to submit and come to terms with your inadequate penis via non-consensual mind control. Pretty hot if you ask me! I love playing a wicked therapist.

Another popular clip for the month was “Bloodbag Caged”, a POV vampire fantasy. I come to greet you, my pet, who is caged and waiting as I devoured one of my other lovers. But I’m still horny and hungry want dessert…so I torment you as I tell you what I did to him, stripping off my robe and revealing tight latex and my long, long fangs.

My bestselling clip for April in my Fetish store was certainly “Pain into Pleasure.” My inflation lovers can’t get enough of seeing my stomach turn round via authentic inflation methods, especially combined with role-play! This one was a custom where I took some pills I bought on the internet to turn pain into pleasure, so that when I inflate myself the accompanying discomfort and pain doesn’t stop me and I go further and further until I go too far altogether! 

My personal favourite clip from April was also a popular custom. The concept was just so imaginative and funny, yet I performed it well, if I do say so myself.  Years of doing ad lib role-play as a pro switch and a cam girl taught me how to be “on” at the drop of a hat and to be able to take any fetish seriously without giggling, even if it is really out there and I just learned about it! I’ve come to really understand and appreciate all the nuances of inflation and expansion fetishes. In “The Medical Mistake”, I’m a nurse rendered unprofessional by the sight of your huge priapic erection. I find myself unable to resist tasting you, and immediately my breasts start to grow! I end up getting enormously big titted and enormously turned on by that fact. I can’t help riding your dick and taking some more, although of course that gets me in a tricky situation that we end up making the best of 😉

 

March Clip Roundup

My best-selling fandom clip for march was indisputably “Pegging for a Prickpig.” I don’t know if it was the killer outfit–latex leggings paired with stilettos, a tight white T-shirt and a motorcycle jacket–or my massive, veiny pink strap-on, or even the deviant alliteration of the title, but it sure was popular. Check it out!

My pick for March in my femdom store was “Good Cop, Bad Cop”. It is my favourite because of the mindfuck element, and how I got to play two characters, one seductive, one sadistic. Both teamed up (without you realizing) to extract information from you while you are in custody.

My best-selling fetish clip for March was “Scuba Slutting in Latex 2”. You guys sure do seem to love me in latex! This one was hot because it combined one of my favourite rubber outfits with flippers, vintage scuba mask, toys, orgasms and a regulator!

My underdog clip for the month was “Brought to the Brink” an extended jerk off instruction clip where I was wearing one of my favourite lingerie sets. Deep purple French lace and stockings, explicit, detailed instructions and tease, striptease and mutual masturbation, what’s not to love? Edge yourself for me, and cum harder.

February Clip Roundup

I know, I know, I’m really late on this one but there were some great clips in February and I don’t want you to miss out! I’ve been working hard to produce creative content for you to enjoy.

My favourite clip for my Femdom store was certainly “Becoming Catwoman’s Minion.” I went all out and added sharp, long claws, finally made use of my Catwoman mask and even bought a bullwhip!  Of course I enjoyed the roleplay, the purrs, the growls, the hisses, I think Catwoman is a role I was meant to play! My dangerous curves in latex, my naturally feline ways. One of my favourit things was cracked that whip as I broke you into serving me as my minion, then serving me sexually to seal the deal. My long red claws gliding over my slick pussy lips once I unzip my latex leggings is a sight to die for!

My favourite, under-appreciated clip in my Fetish store was “Colourful Layered Encasement 2″. I really enjoy the sensation of being covered in nylon, and here I wanted to explore and layer it up. So I combined white tights with red fishnet and purple nylon. It felt so good to press the vibrator to my pussy over the pantyhose! I came a lot. Must see for pantyhose and encasement fetishists! Don’t let the non-classic approach put you off. It was hot!

For February my best-selling clip in my Femdom store was another latex clip, notice a trend? I’ve been really feeling myself in rubber lately. “Cop Out 2″ is the second part in a series from a character I made up spontaneously and really enjoyed. I wanted to shoot in this metallic blue latex, and suddenly I thought–police officer! I had a studded belt, a night stick, a cop cap and handcuffs, and patrol boots as well. This one is about me forcing you to take lots and lots of black cock, POV femdom style of course. What’s not to love? You know you have a secret, taboo craving for big black cock, who doesn’t? 😉

My best-selling clip for February in my Fetish store was certainly “Sneezeterbation”. Was it the silly title, or the fact that I was sneezing prolifically while masturbating? I suspect the latter…watch my frustration as I play with myself but am constantly interrupted by sneezes! It culminates in a powerful ejaculation–of snot of course–timed with our orgasms!  Great nose blowing scenes with a real hankie as well.

Throwback Thursday: Obsessed with Teacher’s Pussy

 

I’m planning to make Throwback Thursday a feature on my blog, showing off some of my favourite older clips. This one is from when I still took fan requests and filmed at home a lot, a few years old but still filmed in HD. I have bare legs and am wearing sexy patent leather Oxfords. My “student” is a young boy with an obsession with teacher’s pussy (of course) and gets a taste of teacher’s punishment with some harsh small penis humiliation and JOI, but also some mercy with upskirt views of teacher’s strong legs and heels! 10 minutes long and available here — Obsessed with Teacher’s Pussy